Cindy Lou

Journal to share my thoughts and daily events with friends and family
in my journey through Acute Myelogenous Leukemia (AML).

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Last day home

Well the bags are packed including the pink boxing gloves. I am as prepared as I am going to be. I've said my goodbyes to almost everyone and I am ready to face whatever the future holds for me. Only God knows what that may be, but I've pleaded with Him for many more years and I know you have too. I ready to put up the fight of my life if I have to, but I'm remaining optimistic that I will get through this with a minimum of complications for me and also for Libby. I saw many friends and family last night and everyone has been so supportive and that is what is going to get me through on the hard days. I am blessed and humbled by your caring. I had dinner with my brother, Tony last night and he has really been one of my rocks, thanks Tony. Tonight we are having dinner with our friends Ron and Patti at my most favorite restaurant. It will be my last hurrah for a while. I am ready. So let's do this one more time..............Let's Roll! YES I CAN!

posted by Cindy Lou @ 3:51 PM  

6 Comments:

  • At 5:22 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Cindy and Libby:
    We wish you all the best and will pray extra hard in the days/weeks to come!
    Jeanne

     

  • At 9:36 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Cindy,

    Keeping you, Kyle, Libby and your family in our thoughts and prayers.


    Love & prayers,
    Ed & Cindy

     

  • At 9:41 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Mom the girls and I are going to pray every night for everything to go as smooth as they can possibly go. I have had a pretty blah day thinking about you and what lies ahead but a smile comes to my face knowing in my heart and soul that this will be the last fight you'll have to fight for a long time. We love you and the girls and I will keep in contact. Love you and I will be with you every second right there in your heart and mind.
    Love ya
    Jess

     

  • At 2:33 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    About 30 years ago I sat with my boyfriend's almost 16 year old brother in his room at the Cleveland Clinic when they brought the bag in for his bone marrow transplant. He had contracted some rare form of A-plastic Anemia from working with varnish on some old boat while he must have had the flu or something that weakened his immune system. Strangest fluke they called it and transplant had to be done before 16 for some reason to do with adulthood lessening chances of success.

    15 or so years later, I was reading to a class about "The Magic School Bus," and as I read I thought about Jeff and that week at Ronald McDonald House waiting for chemo and the transplant with his family. I was so preoccupied I had to stop my train of thught to finish reading to the class. Afterward, I played my own "Magic School Bus" story through my head. You see, Jeff's brother, the donor was really on that school bus in the bag of marrow. He road through zapping all the bad cells in Jeff's body and all was well. How could he lose with the traits from two great parents ready to go to battle along with his?

    Your sister Libby will do the same for you with the help of all those who love you. As simple as the "Magic School Bus" may seem, I wish I'd known of it that day I sat with Jeff waiting, talking, not talking, wondering, even joking.....but so afraid for him and for me not being able to help enough..... I'd have taken that "Magic School Bus" and given it the ride of it's life, because when I heard of it for the first time, that very scary day came alive and it was like a light bulb went on! I'd have known what to talk about! To this day, I have no idea what we did talk about or how I did as the only one he'd allow in the room for that day. I felt so inadequate and helpless. His family was wonderful about it, though, and I remember him agreeing to their coming in part way through.

    You sister-in-law, Jan, is an old old friend. She sent me your blogs and I just had to tell you....Though I don't know you, can feel this wave and had to tell you this little story. Never really told it to anyone before because thought they'd think I was nuts, but believe me, any way you think of it, your sister will be zapping those bad cells and you'll come out a winner. My prayers, too, are yours.

    As stupid as this may sound, it's supposed to be good to imagine the ---- being overcome and banished, to actually picture it..

    Of course I didn't really know any of that then, or when "The Magic School Bus" shocked my thoughts back to that day. Forgive me for going on........prayers to you...

     

  • At 3:41 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Morning Bella,
    Couldn't sleep and I was thinking of you and what lies ahead these next five weeks. I know you are thinking of what you and Libby are facing, but the two of you will be doing it enveloped with so much love, support and prayers. It's going to be tough, but it's also going to be your cure, Cindy. You are going to have many, many wonderful years ahead of you and Kyle and the rest of your family. This is the last hump, the one that will make you completely well and letting you start living your life again. You did it before and you will certainly do it this time. Think pink and DO IT! (Jabez)

     

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