Cindy Lou

Journal to share my thoughts and daily events with friends and family
in my journey through Acute Myelogenous Leukemia (AML).

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Day34

Thank you everyone for all the strength and encouragement you give me. Yesterday was one of those days when I really needed it. I know I'm being tested, but yesterday I just lost all my gump. Today, I'm feeling stronger. I am looking forward to going home. I wish they would give me a day, but they won't. They say as soon as my white count climbs 2 days in a row, so that's what I am praying for right now. Keep the prayers coming please, I know they are helpng and I know we can WIN!

posted by Cindy Lou @ 10:13 AM  

13 Comments:

  • At 10:42 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi Cindy
    I think this is the 3rd time I have checked this morning to see if you had a note. So I hope you were getting a good sleep and rest. I am glad that you are feeling a little stronger today. Hope all of our prayers are making the difference. I know you are anxious to get home in your own little abode and relax and recharge. I am sure it will be SOON. The Lord does things in HIS TIME ---not ours, I guess. So we have to be patient but I am sure your patience is running thin about now and that is readily understood. You are being pushed to the LIMIT but with all of our prayers I know you can hang in there and accept this ROADBLOCK one more time. GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO WE.
    LUV YA---MOM ROTH AND RALPH

     

  • At 10:52 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi Cindy,
    It's more difficult to write a note of encouragment after reading the slight set back you faced in the shadow of such good news. Just remember, it is just that, a "slight set back" and I'm sure with the constant prayers and great medical attention you are receiving, good news is just around the corner! You are very blessed to find your perfect donor in Libby. Strength, faith and family will get you through this. Your son knows your heart will be with him and his bride on their special day. You will appreciate the short but welcome time in your own home. Hope that comes soon. I'll keep you in my prayers.
    Charla

     

  • At 10:52 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi Cindy,
    It's more difficult to write a note of encouragment after reading the slight set back you faced in the shadow of such good news. Just remember, it is just that, a "slight set back" and I'm sure with the constant prayers and great medical attention you are receiving, good news is just around the corner! You are very blessed to find your perfect donor in Libby. Strength, faith and family will get you through this. Your son knows your heart will be with him and his bride on their special day. You will appreciate the short but welcome time in your own home. Hope that comes soon. I'll keep you in my prayers.
    Charla

     

  • At 10:56 AM, Blogger Kim Frey said…

    Hey Cindy,
    I'm sorry about the news....i know that was very unexpected, but listen, you will NOT get down about it...the very second it starts to overcome your thoughts, you think of those grandkids and all you have in your life...think of planning and taking a big family vacation that is so well deserved for you all....You need to keep the positive attitude b/c I truly believe that is a huge part of beating this!!! hey, guess what song is on the radio? I WILL SURVIVE!!! (it's on the cd i made too!)I am thinking of you lots and I know you'll get through this...Thank goodness your sister is a match, how lucky!....Miss you lots, Stay positive and strong, Kim.
    p.s.I am wondering if you got a package I sent to the hospital from myself and the girls at work...if not, I must investigate.....let me know

     

  • At 11:18 AM, Blogger BananaBuzzbomb said…

    Hi Aunt Cindy! Glad to hear that your spirits are on the rise. I can only imagine the rollercoaster of emotions you've gone through these past few months. I got a new cd today and there's one song that stuck out to me and I thought "wow, how ironic." To me it totally fits your situation and I wanted to send it on to you. It's by Rascal Flatts...Heidi

    "Stand"

    You feel like a candle in a hurricane.
    Just like a picture with a broken frame.
    Alone and helpless
    Like you've lost your fight
    But you'll be alright

    Cause when push comes to shove
    You taste what you're made of
    You might bend, till you break
    Cause its all you can take
    On your knees you look up
    Decide you've had enough
    You get mad you get strong
    Wipe your hands shake it off
    Then you Stand, Then you stand
    Life's like a novel
    With the end ripped out
    The edge of a canyon
    With only one way down
    Take what you're given before its gone
    Start holding on, keep holding on

    Everytime you get up
    And get back in the race
    One more small piece of you
    Starts to fall into place

     

  • At 12:17 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Dear Cindy, Oh how my heart goes out to you and your family. I am sooooo very sorry to hear the news.I can only imagine how that news must have impacted you. Being at home again should be so good for you. Take the time to rest, be pampered, and meditate a positive outcome from the transplant. I admire your strength so much and you have such a huge circle of family and friends behind you. YOU WILL SURVIVE!! We all miss you at work and are thinking and praying
    for you.

    Love Ya,
    Marsha

     

  • At 1:39 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi Cindy:
    I just returned from Relay for Life in Avon Lake. Leah's teacher is a breast cancer survivor and a group of students surprised her by showing up to watch her walk the Survivor's Lap. I cannot describe the emotions as she came around the track and she saw the kids. I was so moved by the whole experience (and we were only there an hour!) that I plan to participate next year. Next year you will be one of the survivors!
    Thinking of you daily,
    Jeanne

     

  • At 4:38 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi Cindy,
    It's okay to be a little depressed sometimes . When ever I get depressed I have a good cry and then I feel better .[Maybe it's a female thing].But seriously I was a very weepy child.I don't know how my MOM put up with me.[Maybe that's why she went shopping once a week and got herself a two pound bag of chocolate candy .] Hmmmm You know maybe that's why I have to have two fudgesicles every day and two Mocha Frappuccino's by Starbucks.Yes deffinately a Female Thing. Did I tell you she had six girls and two boy's? Well CindyI hope you Keep feeling stronger and that you get to go home soon.We'll all be Praying that your white count climbs quickly.
    Yes You Can and Yes You Will.
    Thinking of you daily.
    Linda p.

     

  • At 4:47 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hey!
    We just got home from Canada and I read what has happened. Okay now, you''ve had a horrendous setback, but we're ALL going into this final round with you. I have my kids for 3 more days and the beads will be focused only on the transplant.Your results may show a 3% of blast cells still present, but it also shows 97% of you is clear, and that's better than you had at the onset of this. Cindy, I don't know a thing about the medical field, but if it were me, it would be the bone marrow transplant that I would have wanted all along. That way you positivly know all the bad calls are gone, right? Therefore, in the long run, this is a sure thing for you. You can NOT think about ANYTHING except building your strength up for this next procedure. You compared this to a rollercoaster ride. You were down at the beginning of this journey and then you went up so high, then you rode down again on Friday. Well, now you're making the climb up to the HIGHEST point, and that is where your coaster will remain-at the summit, where there will be no more dips in your way. It's all about attitude, focusing and healing yourself from the inside-mind over matter. You're gonna do this, Cindy Roth, because you HAVE to. Come on now, let me hear you...
    Yes,Yes, YES I CAN!!!

     

  • At 12:33 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    HI CINDY, FIRST OF ALL I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR PHONE CALL, TO LET ME KNOWN YOU WILL BE THINKING OF ME ON MY UP COMING SUGERY. THAT RELLY MEANT ALOT TO ME. CINDY, THAT IS JUST LIKE YOU. YOU ARE AN AMAZING PERSON WHO ALWAYS THINKS OF OTHERS! I THINK YOU HIT IT ON THE NAIL, WHEN YOU COMPARE YOUR JOURNEY TO A ROLLERCOASTER. LIFE IS A ROLLERCOASTER THERE ARE HIGHTS AND LOWS, AND IT IS SCARY. WHEN WE ARE ON THIS ROLLERCOASTER WE ARE NOT ALONE WE HAVE A FAMILY MEMBER WITH US OR A FRIEND. CINDY YOU ARE NOT ALONE ON THAT ROLLERCOASTER. WE ALL ARE THERE WITH YOU FOR THE UPS AND DOWNS. AT THE END OF THE RIDE WE ARE ALL GLAD TO GET OFF AND SAY WOW WE SURVIVED THAT! CINDY THAT IS WHAT YOU WILL BE DOING THE RIDE WILL END AND YOU WILL SURVIVE.WHEN YOU GET TO GO HOME YOU REST AND GET BACK YOUR STRENGTH, AND THEN WITH THE HELP OF YOUR SISTER YOU GO BACK FIGHTING!! AND ALL OF US WILL BE THERE FIGHTING WITH YOU TO GET THE LAST 3% OF THOSE CELLS GONE!!! CINDY YES YOU CAN YES YOU CAN AND YES YOU WILL!! REMEMBER YOU CAN CALL ME ANYTIME. IAM HERE FOR YOU . YOU ARE ALWAYS WITH ME IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. I THINK THERE IS SOMETHING TO IT THAT BOTH KIM AND I HEAR THE SONG I WILL SURVIVE!!! YOU ARE LOVED MY FRIEND BY MANY!!!LOVE YOU DIANA

     

  • At 4:03 AM, Blogger Jessie said…

    Mom! I know that this is early in the morning but I can't sleep. I love you and I BELIEVE everything is going to be ok. I told God tonight you have to be strong and I believed he agreed with me. I have this inner peace that everything is going to be ok!!! I love you sooooo much and I told God that I need you here!! So I feel that he agrees! You need to see my babie's grow up! You are far too young to miss that! You are far to giving for God not to grant you life!!! You have given life when you were a child to Marcie my sister and then to me two years later then Kd three years later then Zac one and a half years later. I don't think in God's right mind that he would think you don't deserve a life of your own. you have been a MOM all your life, well practically. Not that that is bad because I love being a mom, But you ar in the stage of your life that you should be enjoying it! I Love you mom and I believe that you are going to make it!!! I love you and I WILL BE THERE TO WELCOME YOU HOME!!!!! I love you always and FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Jess

     

  • At 10:06 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Good Morning Cindy, I hope you're getting alot of rest so you can get home soon. Had fun with your boys last night you've done a good job with them, even big Kyle. Rest up ,stay positive and we'll see you soon at home. Love you always Doug and Pat

     

  • At 5:54 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Hi! Just want to say what a nice site. Bye, see you soon.
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